I will be heading to New York and I am so excited!!! I haven't been there for four years and I am really eager to see how everyone is doing now.The two things that I am worried about are my frizzy hair and my awkwardness.
It is a little weird and superficial for me to say that I am worried about my hair, but I really think that my hair is one of the craziest and most unmanageable hair in the world. My hair is so poofy to the point where it could scare the living and wake up the dead. I might be exaggerating a little bit about the last part:) I was thinking that if my hair is this poofy in AZ that it might double in size by the time I get out of JFK airport. I have heard that it is really humid in New York and I really hope that it is not bad as it people say. If it is, I really hope my hair will behave:)
The other thing that I am anxious about is meeting people. Especially new people. I am not the greatest person in meeting and greeting. I tend to be really awkward and quiet. It takes me a while to warm up to people. I hope that I don't weird anyone out and say something dumb. If I do, I apologize in advance.
On the other hand, I am really excited to go to New York to see my cousin getting married! There is something joyous about being at weddings. I think it is beautiful to see a journey and a life beginning in front of my eyes. This is going to be the first family wedding that I am going to witness so it is really special.
I am also excited to see familiar faces and catch up with them. I am excited to see the city again and see new places. On that note, New York, HERE I COME!!!!:)
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
The Unknown
I feel that as I am growing up, it is getting much harder to to face every day. The sad thing is I am saying it as a teenager. I have no idea how much more crazier it is going to get when I am in my 20's. 30's, 40's, and all the decades that come after that.
To be honest, I am not sure if it is hormones, teenager brain, being a girl, or just life that makes me feel the way I do. I feel like my emotions are all over the place. There are times I am so happy and hyper with no care in the world and there are other times where I feel like I am going no where in life. I guess I am trying to say that there are way too much emotions involved when I do things. I feel that things are getting complex and complicated as I am growing up.
I am growing up way too fast. Or at least it seems like. I guess a lot of people see it as a good thing. Getting out of the house. Finding a place. Choosing a college that it 500 miles away from home and living alone. Unfortunately, not me. I am scared out of my FREAKING mind to get out of my house!! Let's face it. I can't even get of the house without making sure that the neighbor's cat is not in the front porch! I am not one of those people who can free fall and hope to land on solid ground. I am one of those anti-rollercoaster-sit-in-a-cocoon-get-away-from-creepy-people kinda gal. I am the last person to take risks. I avoid stages, skydivers, talking in front of people, talking TO people as much as I can because I like to play it safe. However, these days I am realizing that I can't live in my parents' house forever. I have to get out there and actually figure it out. I have to decide what I want to do with my life. I have to take risks and hope that I fall on solid ground. I also realized that if I do make a mess, then I will just have to learn from it and make better choices. I guess it is one of the most scariest and the most exciting thing that life has to offer. The unknown. Not knowing what exactly you are doing but hoping that your faith and the things that you have learned will kick in. As scared as I am, I feel like somehow things are going to work out. Hopefully it does :)
Friday, March 9, 2012
Women's Day !
A shout out for all the girls, teenagers,ladies, and young women out there!!! Happy Belated Women's Day! It is not a day that is recognized by a lot of people today. To be honest, I didn't really know that there was a day for women until a couple of days ago:)
For a while, I have been feeling grateful for the freedom and rights I have as a woman. I had a conversation with couple of my friends the other day of how some people think that girls are weak and of less value. I feel that this discrimination and stereotypes that people have of women are so wrong. They think that we are not capable of doing things and that we can only do so much to change the world.We have the ability to change lives and change the world. I feel like God has given us traits such as compassion that enables us to to change the world.
One thing that has influenced me to have such a strong view on women's right is a book that I read last year. During the fall of last year, I read A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini. It is an amazing novel of a young girl in Kabul, Afghanistan who was forced into a marriage with a much older man after her mother died. This story explains of this girl's journey as she stayed in this marriage. Throughout the entire book, I kept thinking " Why did she get married to him??" It was one of those books that makes you so frustrated but you can't put it down. I felt like this book was partially disturbing because of the way this lady was treated. She was abused and forced into things that she didn't wanted to do such as covering her face completely when she went outside. She was completely closed off from the outside world and hated by this man for not being able to produce a child. She had to see her husband get married to another girl and see her getting tortured the same way that he tortured her. It is one of those books that shows the emotional threshold and stamina that a woman has. She stayed in the marriage for 20 or so years until she couldn't see him abuse his second wife anymore. I won't say how the book ended, but it was an ending that saddened me and relieved me at the same time. It reminded me of how grateful I should to be able to live in a land where I could achieve my dreams and make a difference.
To all the women out there who are young or old, never think that you are not important. We don't have to sit down and be treated poorly treated. Know that you matter and that your voice counts. You are one more person that can make difference in this world. You are capable of achieving all of your dreams as long as you believe in it. Let us be a voice for those women who can't speak and fight for what is important.
For a while, I have been feeling grateful for the freedom and rights I have as a woman. I had a conversation with couple of my friends the other day of how some people think that girls are weak and of less value. I feel that this discrimination and stereotypes that people have of women are so wrong. They think that we are not capable of doing things and that we can only do so much to change the world.We have the ability to change lives and change the world. I feel like God has given us traits such as compassion that enables us to to change the world.
One thing that has influenced me to have such a strong view on women's right is a book that I read last year. During the fall of last year, I read A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini. It is an amazing novel of a young girl in Kabul, Afghanistan who was forced into a marriage with a much older man after her mother died. This story explains of this girl's journey as she stayed in this marriage. Throughout the entire book, I kept thinking " Why did she get married to him??" It was one of those books that makes you so frustrated but you can't put it down. I felt like this book was partially disturbing because of the way this lady was treated. She was abused and forced into things that she didn't wanted to do such as covering her face completely when she went outside. She was completely closed off from the outside world and hated by this man for not being able to produce a child. She had to see her husband get married to another girl and see her getting tortured the same way that he tortured her. It is one of those books that shows the emotional threshold and stamina that a woman has. She stayed in the marriage for 20 or so years until she couldn't see him abuse his second wife anymore. I won't say how the book ended, but it was an ending that saddened me and relieved me at the same time. It reminded me of how grateful I should to be able to live in a land where I could achieve my dreams and make a difference.
To all the women out there who are young or old, never think that you are not important. We don't have to sit down and be treated poorly treated. Know that you matter and that your voice counts. You are one more person that can make difference in this world. You are capable of achieving all of your dreams as long as you believe in it. Let us be a voice for those women who can't speak and fight for what is important.
Friday, March 2, 2012
Plans?
Sorry for being away for so long. I can't believe it is already March!! It went by pretty fast. I haven't been doing a whole lot this year. Usually I have some sort of New Year's Resolution but for some reason I didn't really have one for this year. I think it is because I know myself well enough to know that my plans don't work out.
There are many people who I have met that is able to do anything that they their set mind up to. Unfortunately, I am not one of those people. I struggle with going with what I say. I guess it could be a really bad thing but there are some times when I realize that it is okay when things don't always go the way I want it to go. It doesn't really mean that I let my life pass by me. It is important to have goals but it is okay if you cheat with your plans sometimes.
I remember being that uptight person who freaks out when things don't go the way they were planned. However, this year it just feels so good to let go and relax for a minute. I still do have those moments where I panic and stress out but I feel better when I am calm. I guess that was one of my brain's resolution.
I hope you guys have New Year's Resolutions that are going well but if it is not, don't freak out. It is okay if it doesn't go the way you wanted. Give yourself a break and sit back with a book or have a bubble bath. Life is too short to worry and stress about little things:)
There are many people who I have met that is able to do anything that they their set mind up to. Unfortunately, I am not one of those people. I struggle with going with what I say. I guess it could be a really bad thing but there are some times when I realize that it is okay when things don't always go the way I want it to go. It doesn't really mean that I let my life pass by me. It is important to have goals but it is okay if you cheat with your plans sometimes.
I remember being that uptight person who freaks out when things don't go the way they were planned. However, this year it just feels so good to let go and relax for a minute. I still do have those moments where I panic and stress out but I feel better when I am calm. I guess that was one of my brain's resolution.
I hope you guys have New Year's Resolutions that are going well but if it is not, don't freak out. It is okay if it doesn't go the way you wanted. Give yourself a break and sit back with a book or have a bubble bath. Life is too short to worry and stress about little things:)
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Back on
Hello everyone!! I have decided to come back to blogging world after a long absence. The reason why I haven't blogged in a long time is because I have a lot to say and at the same time I don't really have a whole lot to say. The past three months have been good; a lot has happened: good and bad. I hope everyone else are doing well and having a good start to this year! Talk to you guys later!!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
First Thanksgiving
This is the first Thanksgiving in our new house and it feels really special. It feels nice to give mama break and let the kids cook. Yes, the kids are cooking and you might think it is going to be disastrous but we are going to do our best. Last year was the first time we made Thanksgiving food but it was out of boxes. This year we decided to make some foods from scratch. Hopefully the food turns out to be okay but if it doesn't I am still going to be grateful for all that I have.
I am grateful for a lot of things this year. I am grateful for a good family who loves and cares for me. I am thankful for all of my friends who support me. I am grateful for all the people who take me for who I am. I am blessed to have another breath.I am simply grateful today.
I hope you all have a good Thanksgiving and remember that it is not about a tradition but a reminder of how we should be grateful for what we have. What are you thankful for this year?
I am grateful for a lot of things this year. I am grateful for a good family who loves and cares for me. I am thankful for all of my friends who support me. I am grateful for all the people who take me for who I am. I am blessed to have another breath.I am simply grateful today.
I hope you all have a good Thanksgiving and remember that it is not about a tradition but a reminder of how we should be grateful for what we have. What are you thankful for this year?
Saturday, November 19, 2011
" Hold on tight"
This post might be a little bit embarrassing for you, Deni but as an older sister it is my job to brag about you :)
The other day I was checking my email and I got a message from my sister with the subject " Hold on Tight". I opened up the email and it said, "School my be hard, but it wont be long till you get your diploma, hold on tight.... and everything will work out.... :D" and there was a picture of Agnes from " Despicable Me" hugging a monster- looking animal. It was a cute email that was uplifting and funny:)
I feel bad for my little sister sometimes because I get so caught up with my studies that I forget to listen to her. I don't listen to her as well as I should and that makes me a bad sister. I can get so irritable sometimes that I take it on her but somehow she still deals with it. She takes the time to listen to me even though I don't. Deni has these qualities that are so unique. She is bold, strong, and fearless. She enjoys life and doesn't carry a heavy load on her back. I am not saying that she has it easy. She is one of those optimistic people who can face life's challenges eye-to-eye. I can see it in her. I can see that she has potential to change things in life. Although she seems a little hard on the outside, she truly cares about people in her life. She is a brave young lady who will hunt a person down if they hurt one of her dear ones. She is truly a unique person.
At times it takes me by surprise when she says these kind of things. I forget sometimes that she is growing up into an adolescence. I still picture her being 4' 9" with her short haircut and carrying around "Sophie", her baby doll. It is crazy to stop and realize at all the changes that is going around. It saddens me sometimes to know that people are growing and changing, but I know it is for the best.
I am grateful for my little sister and couldn't be more proud of her. Despite the negative influence that is going around her, she always make the right decisions. I am happy to have a little sister like her and couldn't have traded for another one:)
The other day I was checking my email and I got a message from my sister with the subject " Hold on Tight". I opened up the email and it said, "School my be hard, but it wont be long till you get your diploma, hold on tight.... and everything will work out.... :D" and there was a picture of Agnes from " Despicable Me" hugging a monster- looking animal. It was a cute email that was uplifting and funny:)
I feel bad for my little sister sometimes because I get so caught up with my studies that I forget to listen to her. I don't listen to her as well as I should and that makes me a bad sister. I can get so irritable sometimes that I take it on her but somehow she still deals with it. She takes the time to listen to me even though I don't. Deni has these qualities that are so unique. She is bold, strong, and fearless. She enjoys life and doesn't carry a heavy load on her back. I am not saying that she has it easy. She is one of those optimistic people who can face life's challenges eye-to-eye. I can see it in her. I can see that she has potential to change things in life. Although she seems a little hard on the outside, she truly cares about people in her life. She is a brave young lady who will hunt a person down if they hurt one of her dear ones. She is truly a unique person.
At times it takes me by surprise when she says these kind of things. I forget sometimes that she is growing up into an adolescence. I still picture her being 4' 9" with her short haircut and carrying around "Sophie", her baby doll. It is crazy to stop and realize at all the changes that is going around. It saddens me sometimes to know that people are growing and changing, but I know it is for the best.
I am grateful for my little sister and couldn't be more proud of her. Despite the negative influence that is going around her, she always make the right decisions. I am happy to have a little sister like her and couldn't have traded for another one:)
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