NY!!!

         I will be heading to New York and I am so excited!!! I haven't been there for four years and I am really eager to see how everyone is doing now.The two things that I am worried about are my frizzy hair and my awkwardness.
     It is a little weird and superficial for me to say that I am worried about my hair, but I really think that my hair is one of the craziest and most unmanageable hair in the world. My hair is so poofy to the point where it could scare the living and wake up the dead. I might be exaggerating a little bit about the last part:) I was thinking that if my hair is this poofy in AZ that it might double in size by the time I get out of JFK airport. I have heard that it is really humid in New York and I really hope that it is not bad as it people say. If it is, I really hope my hair will behave:)
     The other thing that I am anxious about is meeting people. Especially new people. I am not the greatest person in meeting and greeting. I tend to be really awkward and quiet. It takes me a while to warm up to people.  I hope that I don't weird anyone out and say something dumb. If I do, I apologize in advance.
     On the other hand, I am really excited to go to New York to see my cousin getting married! There is something joyous about being at weddings. I think it is  beautiful to see a journey and a life beginning in front of my eyes. This is going to be the first family wedding that I am going to witness so it is really special.
    I am also excited to see  familiar faces and catch up with them. I am excited to see the city again and see new places. On that note, New York, HERE I COME!!!!:)

The Unknown

      I feel that as I am growing up, it is getting much harder to to face every day. The sad thing is I am saying it as a teenager. I have no idea how much more crazier it is going to get when I am in my 20's. 30's, 40's, and all the decades that come after that.

     To be honest, I am not sure if it is hormones, teenager brain, being a girl, or just life that makes me feel the way I do. I feel like my emotions are all over the place. There are times I am so happy and hyper with no care in the world and there are other times where I feel like I am going no where in life. I guess I am trying to say that there are way too much emotions involved when I do things. I feel that things are getting complex and complicated as I am growing up. 

     I am growing up way too fast. Or at least it seems like. I guess a lot of people see it as a good thing. Getting out of the house. Finding a place. Choosing a college that it 500 miles away from home and living alone. Unfortunately, not me. I am scared out of my FREAKING mind to get out of my house!! Let's face it. I can't even get of the house without making sure that the neighbor's cat is not in the front porch! I am not one of those people who can free fall and hope to land on solid ground. I am one of those anti-rollercoaster-sit-in-a-cocoon-get-away-from-creepy-people kinda gal. I am the last person to take risks. I avoid stages, skydivers, talking in front of people, talking TO people as much as I can because I like to play it safe. However, these days I am realizing that I can't live in my parents' house forever. I have to get out there and actually figure it out. I have to decide what I want to do with my life. I have to take risks and hope that I fall on solid ground. I also realized that if I do make a mess, then I will just have to learn from it and make better choices. I guess it is one of the most scariest and the most exciting thing that life has to offer. The unknown. Not knowing what exactly you are doing but hoping that your faith and the things that you have learned will kick in. As scared as I am, I feel like somehow things are going to work out. Hopefully it does :)