Hola!!

                   I haven't been blogged in a while and I thought that I should check in before the summer ends.  I am not sure where to start with this summer, but it sure does feels like it is flying by. I felt like half of this summer was spent looking forward to going to New York. Since last November, we have been waiting for this summer and I got to say it was worth the wait!! New York was such a fun trip!!! We were able to spent a lot of time with family and meet some very special people!! Throughout the trip, we did a lot of things, but there were few highlights.

Highlight #1: The first meet with everyone after 4 years. I was a little nervous to see everyone after 4 years, but somehow it all kind of worked out.
Highlight # 2 : Getting a pedicure/ manicure. Never had one. One of the best experiences ever. Planning to get another one.
Highlight # 3 : The family barbecue. It was really hot, but the food was amazing.
Highlight # 4 : Drive to Philadelphia: Awkward and stinky in the beginning. Fun and stinky by the end.
Highlight # 5: The wedding. It was the second wedding that I had been to and one of the best ones. Everyone seemed to put on a smile and cover their dark circles from the lack of sleep. My cousin looked Ahh-mazing!!
Highlight # 6 : Drive back to New York. This is not really a highlight because we slept through most of the ride.
Highlight # 7: Playing Mafia. Just writing the word " Mafia" makes me smile:) I was a terrible killer. Nevertheless, I had fun accusing and being accused by people especially a particular person who I am not going to mention:) He had a lot of fun trying to kill me and my sisters.
Highlight # 8 : Going to the diner in Yonkers. I don't remember the name of the diner but it was really good.
Highlight # 9 : Going to the subway to get to the city. One word: Terrifying. I was so afraid to look at anyone because I was worried someone would go all crazy on me. I looked at the dirty subway floor for most of the time. Fortunately, I got out of there safely.
Highlight # 10: Meeting the people from my uncle's church. Everyone was really nice and sweet to us. There may have been few who didn't really like us because we were falling asleep in church. There is no excuse for it, but I got to say I tried my best and I did good for someone who was running on 5 hours of sleep.
Highlight # 11: Going to Piermount Pier.The view from there was really pretty. We could have almost crashed a wedding, but we just watched from the sideline. I guess I could say I have been to three weddings:)
Highlight # 12 : Playing Camps. I have never played it before, but it was definitely fun. I was  slow at it but I got the hang of it by the next day.
Highlight # 13: The humidity.  We were all able to withstand and beat the humidity - including my hair.
These were most of the highlights from the trip. It is crazy to know that all of this happened in a matter of 10 days. It was sad to leave New York, but it was good to know that we were leaving after meeting everyone we wanted to meet. I can't wait for the next New York trip!!

NY!!!

         I will be heading to New York and I am so excited!!! I haven't been there for four years and I am really eager to see how everyone is doing now.The two things that I am worried about are my frizzy hair and my awkwardness.
     It is a little weird and superficial for me to say that I am worried about my hair, but I really think that my hair is one of the craziest and most unmanageable hair in the world. My hair is so poofy to the point where it could scare the living and wake up the dead. I might be exaggerating a little bit about the last part:) I was thinking that if my hair is this poofy in AZ that it might double in size by the time I get out of JFK airport. I have heard that it is really humid in New York and I really hope that it is not bad as it people say. If it is, I really hope my hair will behave:)
     The other thing that I am anxious about is meeting people. Especially new people. I am not the greatest person in meeting and greeting. I tend to be really awkward and quiet. It takes me a while to warm up to people.  I hope that I don't weird anyone out and say something dumb. If I do, I apologize in advance.
     On the other hand, I am really excited to go to New York to see my cousin getting married! There is something joyous about being at weddings. I think it is  beautiful to see a journey and a life beginning in front of my eyes. This is going to be the first family wedding that I am going to witness so it is really special.
    I am also excited to see  familiar faces and catch up with them. I am excited to see the city again and see new places. On that note, New York, HERE I COME!!!!:)

The Unknown

      I feel that as I am growing up, it is getting much harder to to face every day. The sad thing is I am saying it as a teenager. I have no idea how much more crazier it is going to get when I am in my 20's. 30's, 40's, and all the decades that come after that.

     To be honest, I am not sure if it is hormones, teenager brain, being a girl, or just life that makes me feel the way I do. I feel like my emotions are all over the place. There are times I am so happy and hyper with no care in the world and there are other times where I feel like I am going no where in life. I guess I am trying to say that there are way too much emotions involved when I do things. I feel that things are getting complex and complicated as I am growing up. 

     I am growing up way too fast. Or at least it seems like. I guess a lot of people see it as a good thing. Getting out of the house. Finding a place. Choosing a college that it 500 miles away from home and living alone. Unfortunately, not me. I am scared out of my FREAKING mind to get out of my house!! Let's face it. I can't even get of the house without making sure that the neighbor's cat is not in the front porch! I am not one of those people who can free fall and hope to land on solid ground. I am one of those anti-rollercoaster-sit-in-a-cocoon-get-away-from-creepy-people kinda gal. I am the last person to take risks. I avoid stages, skydivers, talking in front of people, talking TO people as much as I can because I like to play it safe. However, these days I am realizing that I can't live in my parents' house forever. I have to get out there and actually figure it out. I have to decide what I want to do with my life. I have to take risks and hope that I fall on solid ground. I also realized that if I do make a mess, then I will just have to learn from it and make better choices. I guess it is one of the most scariest and the most exciting thing that life has to offer. The unknown. Not knowing what exactly you are doing but hoping that your faith and the things that you have learned will kick in. As scared as I am, I feel like somehow things are going to work out. Hopefully it does :)

Women's Day !

    A shout out for all the girls, teenagers,ladies, and young women out there!!! Happy Belated Women's Day! It is not a day that is recognized by a lot of people today. To be honest, I didn't really know that there was a day for women until a couple of days ago:)
     For a while, I have been feeling grateful for the freedom and rights I have as a woman. I had a conversation with couple of my friends the other day of how some people think that girls are weak and of less value. I feel that this discrimination and stereotypes that people have of women are so wrong. They think that we are not capable of doing things and that we can only do so much to change the world.We have the ability to change lives and change the world. I feel like God has given us traits such as compassion that enables us to to change the world.
  One thing that has influenced me to have such a strong view on women's right is a book that I read last year. During the fall of last year, I read A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini. It is an amazing novel of a young girl in Kabul, Afghanistan who was forced into a marriage with a much older man after her mother died. This story explains of  this girl's journey as she stayed in  this marriage. Throughout the entire book, I kept thinking " Why did she get married to him??" It was one of those books that  makes you so  frustrated but you can't put it down. I felt like this book was partially disturbing because of the way this lady was treated. She was abused and forced into things that she didn't wanted to do such as covering her face completely when she went outside. She was completely closed off from the outside world and hated by this man for not being able to produce a child. She had to see her husband get married to another girl and see her getting tortured  the same way that he  tortured her. It is one of those books that shows the emotional threshold and stamina that a woman has. She stayed in the marriage for 20 or so years until she couldn't see him abuse his second wife anymore. I won't say how the book ended, but it was an ending that saddened me and relieved me at the same time. It reminded me of how grateful I should to be able to live in a land where I could achieve my dreams and make a difference.
         To all the women out there who are young or old, never think that you are not important. We don't have to sit down and be treated poorly treated. Know that you matter and that your voice counts. You are one more person that can make difference in this world. You are capable of achieving all of your dreams as long as you believe in it. Let us be a voice for those women who can't speak and fight for what is important.

Plans?

           Sorry for being away for so long. I can't believe it is already March!! It went by pretty fast.  I haven't been doing a whole lot this year. Usually I have some sort of New Year's Resolution but for some reason I didn't really have one for this year. I think it is because I know myself well enough to know that my plans don't work out.
           There are many people who I have met that is able to do anything that  they their set mind up to. Unfortunately, I am not one of those people. I struggle with going with what I say. I guess it could be a really bad thing but there are some times when I realize that it is okay when things don't always go the way I want it to go. It doesn't really mean that I let my life pass by me. It is important to have goals but it is okay if you cheat with your plans sometimes.
           I remember being that uptight person who freaks out when things don't go the way they were planned. However, this year it just feels so good to let go and relax for a minute. I still do have those moments where I panic and stress out but I feel better when I am calm. I guess that was one of my brain's resolution.
           I hope you guys have New Year's Resolutions that are going well but if it is not, don't freak out. It is okay if it doesn't go the way you wanted. Give yourself a break and sit back with a book or have a bubble bath. Life is too short to worry and stress about little things:)

Back on

            Hello everyone!! I have decided to come back to  blogging world after a long absence. The reason why I haven't blogged in a long time is because I have a lot to say and at the same time I don't really have a whole lot to say. The past three months have been good; a lot has happened: good and bad. I hope everyone else are doing well and having a good start to this year! Talk to you guys later!!